Letter to Joe

Ever since you left last year, nothing has been the same
I've stopped blaming you for all of my insanity.

I fell in love with a beautiful man
But your beauty was only skin deep
You are heartless and selfish and you
Never loved me.

We said we would never let this happen
Let anything come between us.
"Till the wheels fall off"

Did you forget that you told me that I was your lifetime love
Your love for life

I guess so

I should have never let this go on as long as it did.
Never should have let the abuse get control
But I was so scared, I could never stop shaking.
Just couldn't leave you

You cry in your sleep, do you know that?
I hope someday you find the reasons
For all of your sadness that you lock away

Remember when you throw me down the hallway
Landed on my neck
I was really hurt and you kept hitting me where I was hurt more

You can go spread your hurt and hate to someone else

I'm a new person these days, still damaged, but different.
The peace is gone , the puzzle is undone

If you knew how much you would damage me for the rest of my life
Would you still have done it