Limitless

"I don’t think I am finite. I have my limitless desires. But from the outside I am framed." 

Don DeLillo

“We have these deep terrible lingering fears about ourselves and the people we love. Yet we walk around, talk to people, eat and drink. We manage to function. The feelings are deep and real. Shouldn’t they paralyze us? How is it we can survive them, at least for a little while? We drive a car, we teach a class. How is it no one sees how deeply afraid we were, last night, this morning? Is it something we all hide from each other, by mutual consent? Or do we share the same secret without knowing it? Wear the same disguise?”

 — Don DeLillo

Thursday Morning

In this bedroom

we sleep on sheets so white

turns our fair skin brown

no curtains on our window

shades of gray and blue in the morning

sunlight intruding in on this bedroom scene

so gently nudging us awake

I thought isn't it perfect

how this body compliments mine

how on our sides we fit together

like two things made at one time

this is the only peace I can feel

stolen moments spent awake in bed

these threads remember everything

and for a while i was never alone

a love sorted out in motions

bare walls bare flesh on bare bones

we are already so cluttered with contrasts

there is no need for anything more

he makes me breakfast while i lay in bed

and when life comes rushing back

like high tides one layer at a time

bare feet on the cold tile

I find one egg in the frying pan

and one dish in the sink

after dawn paints us blue all over

this has colored us in shades I cannot see

I can feel them like blankets of warmth

soothing our softest spots

places that we can never touch

but are always the easiest to find

Your Catfish Friend by Richard Brautigan

Your Catfish Friend

by Richard Brautigan

If I were to live my life in catfish forms in scaffolds of skin and whiskers at the bottom of a pond and you were to come by one evening when the moon was shining down into my dark home and stand there at the edge of my affection and think, "It's beautiful here by this pond.I wish somebody loved me," I'd love you and be your catfish friend and drive such lonely thoughts from your mind and suddenly you would be at peace, and ask yourself, "I wonder if there are any catfish in this pond?It seems like a perfect place for them."

A Boat ...a review

A Boat

BY RICHARD BRAUTIGAN

O beautiful

was the werewolf

in his evil forest.

We took him

to the carnival

and he started

crying

when he saw

the Ferris wheel.

Electric

green and red tears

flowed down

his furry cheeks.

He looked

like a boat

out on the dark

water.

It seems strange to me that this is one of my favorite poems. I love the imagery it provides. 

   I also like that it allows the reader no clue on the meanings of its symbolism, so it may mean something different to each person. I think that is one of the most beautiful aspects of poetry, when the author leaves some mystery, lets you come to your own conclusions.

 

    My interpretation of this poem is as follows:

 

    Over simplified, I believe this poem is a contrast between good and evil. The evil/darkness being the werewolf and his forest home and the good/light being the carnival.

    It was very touching to me the thought of a creature that knew no lightness or goodness to see it for the first time. To cry at the sight of it. Imagine spending your whole life in a dark place full of struggle and then peeking in on a whole other way of life. You must feel like a victim of circumstances I loved picturing the reflection of the Ferris wheel lights in the werewolves tears. Perhaps he was crying out of sheer awe of seeing something so different from what he has ever known, something so good, such a change from his evil world. He might be crying also because though he could witness such a good happy place, he could never be a part of it. He would always be different and unable to enjoy such things along with everyone else.

    At the end of the poem " he was like a boat out on dark water".... for me this represented loneliness, hopelessness and alienation. Werewolves are often portrayed as being alone and alienated, different from all of mankind but partly the same. His alienation represented by the lone boat surrounded by water. Unreachable.

Don't do Drugs Kids

I used to not be able to understand why people became addicted to drugs. I didn't get how people I knew could totally transform into these creatures who were filled with such constant desperation. How can someone I have known for my whole life all of a sudden within the course of a few months become a totally different person - a person who I don't know- a person who doesn't care about anything or anyone. How can someone not care that they are ruining everything that they have spent their whole lives trying to build. Relationships, job history, security, credit., trust. All gone.

I was overwhelmed by the loneliness of their world. why cant they just stop.

I think I'm starting to understand now, how doors keep closing around you and your self expectations start to dissolve. I never realized that they were running from things other than cops. Memories , guilt, disappointment, abuse, things that creep up on you things you want to push back down- deeper and deeper so you wont have to see it again.